my life is at a standstill, im never doing anything, the future seems to dwindling away and any opportunities for change seem to be withering up. it feels like im still stuck at the same job, doing the same thing, with the same problems. i honestly thought not being in school would be better, but now i can see that without school my life seems to have no real purpose. i havent really looked into any careers, or schooling for said careers, and part of the reason for that is maybe because im not ready to grow up yet. i wanted to live a little bit, and i can see now that i cant do that here. i want to travel and exeperience new things right now, i cant focus this youthful energy into anything productive yet. however i dont have the money, because i dont have a job where i could even hope to afford what i want to be doing. i dont feel inspired anymore, it feels like every single day is the same routine that im stuck in. but its late now and anyone who reads this (who am i kidding right?) will just think its some other fucking gay ass emo shit written by some depressed fourteen year old who wears makeup and wears frighteningly skinny pants. tally-ho, its off to dreamland i go....